It’s been a long time since Sharry and I last spoke. As a founding member of the Chairem International team, Sharry was focused on bringing the devotee community the media she knew they wanted. While Sharry struggled with coming to terms with her disability, she also embraced that for a select few, it could also be erotic.
Knowing her with cameras off and talking one on one she shared her love for peacocks and old cars, her children and garden. She struggled with people not seeing the person behind the persona of a playboy playmate and a wheelchair diva. She wanted to do more and give more but couldn’t be seen for the person she was, only the images that appeared in magazines and video.
Sharry’s encounters with devotees were mixed. She was taken advantage of by some and cherished by others. When demands became to strange for her to continue to accept, she retired completely from modeling and from Chairem. Sharry had attracted the best and the worst from the devotee community and wanted to be seen as Sharry, not as “that beautiful crippled playboy bunny.”
In our last conversation about 3 years ago, Sharry was adamant about asking that Chairem always protect their models privacy as best as possible. To warn models how to protect themselves and their privacy. We continue to honor her requests today.
At 49, Sharry lived a rugged road with ups and downs, health issues and successes. She believed that in her lifetime, Spinal Cord Injuries would be repairable and walking would become a reality. Never did she loose that hope. She continued to see herself the fire breathing red head of Playboy, not a “victim” or “an invalid.” Angry and happy, determined and charismatic. Her personality and moods could flip like a switch but behind them all was the heart of a loving and endangered being.
The community that has an attraction to women with disabilities can thank Sharry for breaking ground. Deeyana and Sharry paved they way for every other woman who would come before a camera to create snippets of their lives for them to admire. She allowed herself to be filmed struggling with daily activities knowing that some would find those challenges provocative. She was horrified that some would stalk women with camera’s in public places filming them to enjoy at their leisure. Sharry believed she could change that by making videos to fill that void, to fill the need for video stimulus. She tried hard to hide her own feelings about the attraction while filming but was appalled by it when the cameras were turned off. She tried so hard to accept peoples attractions and fantasies in an attempt to end covert filming, to give women in public the privacy they were loosing.
Sharry was a friend, a tenacious and demanding business partner and a raging soul that was never vanquished. Rest in the peace that alluded you in life Sharry.